i cannot search for love as i cannot look for someone i have never seen, i have never heard, i have never met. i cannot look for what i know nothing about and someone i am not really sure even exists. how will we meet and how will we ever know? i will never know. id have to trust myself, without ever having known what it feels like to love.
when i think about it that way, maybe to love is to believe and whatever happens after happens. the one who believes, finds it, and the one who doesn’t, doesn’t. and maybe thats for the best.
it is so rare to ever truly know in life what is reality.