wherever i am in life, i cannot treat it like a transitory period. every second is real. sometimes it does feel like i wasted my college years wanting to come out and work, i wasted my first years out of college by wanting to move out of home, move out of tech and i wasted some more time because i fixated on living with emily.
at every point, there are milestones and moments being made that are to be cherished. there is beauty in being in school, there is beauty in living at home, there is a beauty in working in a job you didnt love, there is a beauty in not knowing everything all the time. maybe emily and i will look back on these months fondly when we are much older. there really is nothing like looking back and feeling a bit empty because i haven’t lived in the present and i did not appreciate who i was and where i was at a particular moment. today constitutes my life and it’s vital i treat it as such.
today i am here. this is who i am. this is my journey.