i read an article today on the guardian about how good or bad posture is almost inconsequential to the pain or ache that one feels in the back. i cannot remember feeling this confused in a while. all the posters i have grown up on which showed a tick on a photo of good posture, all the informational videos and articles that showed how a bad posture made people’s lives hell, all the government and school campaigns about sitting right, it all really did not add up. the worst part was that it made sense in a weird way. i have had terrible posture since i was a child and slouched over pretty much all the time, and yet i have not once in my life experienced any back pain. i can slouch the entire day over a computer and have no lower back pain. i can deadlift more than my body weight with not that straight posture and my lower back would not ache. there is something really weird here.
throughout the pandemic, i was told that a vaccine would help me with the virus and keep me safe. i took the shots and the booster and i still got covid twice in a period of 3 months. granted they were not serious both times, i honestly would have expected that the vaccine would have kept me safe from the arbitrary contacts of covid that we get from people in our lives. the truth was that it just did not and regardless of everyone being vaccinated, my entire household got covid one after another. i do not understand it but for soemthing that does not help you when we are exposed to a decent viral load, it is truly strange we insist on 100 % of a population taking the vaccine. i have no idea what is happening in my body when i take the vaccine or when i get the virus, i am simply trusting some feelings i have and some people in positions of power about what is the best medical advice.
every now and then, we hear these stories of monks and people going without food and drink for days and weeks and then coming back to life. we hear about the placebo effect and other strange happenings in the world that make no sense. i recently read how the drug, finasteride, used for hair loss had side effects for loss of libido for 1% of people. the strange thing though, is that evne 1% of the control group reported loss of libido.
everyday, new articles and nuggets of science come out with new effects and ideas from new research ideas that dispel almost everything we have learnt from before.
there is so less that we truly know. i feel this in my heart everyday that i am alive. more and more, it feels like the only truth that exists is the truth that each of us can feel. what is truth for one is not the truth for someone else. our feelings are what, paradoxically, really exist - there is no science or religion or book or article that can teach us how to behave or be in this exact place and time that would most be like who we are as humans because whoever is giving you that advice, is not you and is not where you are right now. we could follow something and it could work, but that is a correlation and not a causation.
we can have all the statistics that tell us the path to happiness and the path that gives us the most efficient route or the most optimized way forward but that is not really often what i always do or want. i think there is a place in this world’s science for the heart and for our conscience and i think it may never be explored. when all else is failing, i can be sure to count on my heart.